This morning I was talking to God as I washed my face and put on my make up. I asked Him to just listen as I rambled along which I often do. This morning I was missing my dad which is also a normal feeling that occurs in my life on a regular basis. I started talking to God and I asked Him to put on my heart what my dad would say to me as I was talking. Suddenly it occurred to me that I have a lot of George Freeman inside of me and that I know what he would say if I just listen to myself. Now what’s funny about that is that I realized that I was really talking to myself this morning. If I’ve lost you, let me recap what I talked about this morning and then I’ll tell you what I finally told myself to do. I was feeling overwhelmed with my many jobs and other activities so I started listing what I had to do today and what I wanted to do but I was afraid that I wouldn’t get to do for lack of time. I have a big “to do list” every day and I usually prioritize by what will get me a pay check at the end of the day and then I do a few volunteer items and the big thing that I am not getting to is the one thing that I know that God is calling me to do. For the last several weeks, I have told myself that it is okay if I only write a few times a week and that eventually I can work up to writing every day. This morning I thought to myself (and if you want to know the truth…spoke allowed to myself because I live alone and I can do that without people thinking I am crazy…) what do I need to do to make more time for my writing. I have all these ideas floating in my head and I know God has called me to tell my story and yet most days at the end of the day I am too tired to write. Then I heard it loud and clear…. “If you want to write, just write.” So I decided then and there as I was finishing my make up that I was going to start my day with writing and then move onto the other tasks on my list. The great thing about starting my day with the writing is that it gives me a chance to get the clutter out of my head and onto the page whether I decide to post it for everyone to read or write it down and delete it or throw it away when I’m done. It’s so important to get those icky thoughts out of our head so that we can move onto the important things. And sometimes when it’s on the page it seems so much smaller than when we leave it alone in our brain. So thank you God and thank you Daddy because I know that you helped me this morning and all I had to do was ask! Ask and you shall receive. So I guess the other lesson in this is that I should ask more often and stop trying to do it all by myself. You know the other great thing is that I started this morning missing my dad and feeling a bit heart-broken but now I feel like I did after we had one of our heart to hearts when he was still on this earth with me. Notice that I didn’t say “when he was still here with me” because he is in my heart always and all I have to do is start talking and he is there to listen and answer me. Well, I must go fix my make up now because I have shed a few tears as I wrote this out and realized the impact of it all. Then it’s time to move onto the next item on my “to do list” for today. God bless you all and remember that if you need an answer from God sometimes all you need to do is ask the question.
If you want to write, Just Write
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